The Secret Inside Me

It's been a long (11 years to be exact) journey, but I have finally finished my memoir, The Secret Inside Me. And while I have decided NOT to publish it at this time, I have submitted it to a printer for small-scale distribution. Interested? You can find it here.
I wrote it first and foremost to deal with the shame, hurt and anger of my past, accept Christ's forgiveness and healing as well as to share it with others so I no longer have to hold on to this "secret." Over the course of writing it, though, it also became a tribute to my family and friends who have loved and supported me at that time and all these years since. Finally, as I wrapped it up with a preface and an afterword, I hoped that it could be used to encourage others who may have themselves or possibly know someone who has experienced similar circumstances.
It is the story of myself as a young college coed, who, after making several stupid mistakes after high school, ends up suspended from college at home, trying to regain my parents shattered trust so that I can return to school. But instead, I continued to struggle between my desire to live like the world and the calling in my heart to live a life for Christ. When I end up pregnant, I tell no one but my best friend and cousin, return to school and selfishly do everything I can to make the tiny secret inside me go away. Eventually, I succomb to the hound of heaven and begin to take care of myself and the tiny babe, who ends up safely delivered in my college town hospital and adopted to a wonderful, Christian family out of state.
It is the story of Christ in my life and deals with themes of forgiveness, love and family. Now, eleven years later, I let go of a secret I have held onto for so long, telling only few family and friends and surrendur it to the Lord for His use.